Making Time For Me

My days have been extremely hectic lately and there's just never enough hours in a day for me to want to get everything done. I'm constantly pulled, shoved, and demanded upon for something. I have a 3 year old. Enough said. I also just got this tablet that is supposed to make it easier for me to update this blog. We will see how this goes. I'm still trying to get adjust to typing on the screen. So far I am very slow at this. But back to the title of my this entry.

As a woman I recognize "me" time is necessary. A chance for us to unwind and gather our thoughts. To nurture our souls so that we can have the energy again to go full throttle into whatever life has in store for us. However, do I actually make that time often? The answer to that would be NO! I am then left ragged and cranky. Even though I am still doing what needs to be done, my mind and heart isn't fully present. And that's when I stop and realize life is passing me by and I'm too tired to fight it.


It's usually at this point that I finally give myself that special "me" time that I fully deserve. Whether it's going to bed a bit earlier with a good book or waking earlier for just breakfast alone, I savor those moments. Before motherhood a shower was just a shower. Now those 15 minutes of hot water alone has become such a therapeutic part of my week. Most of my shower moments are 5 minutes in a rush to get back to tending to my family's need. But the important lesson I have learned with my alone time is I deserve it. It keeps me positive and inspired. It's during those precious few minutes by myself that I can dream again and let my imagination roam free. Remember life is nothing but a dream and we are the creators.

Going with the flow...

Life seems to keep surprising me and every time I think I've adjusted to some sort of change something else is rising on the horizon. Not that I'm complaining, I've actually had quite amazing changes in the past few months but that is not what this entry is about. For those who know me, I've been contemplating for awhile now what my passion truly is. It's been hard to just focus on my personal passion because my little man takes up the majority of my energy and by the time night time falls, my head hits the pillow and I'm out like a zombie.

For months, I would lie in bed reviewing my day and focusing so hard on all the things I truly love to do and how I could spend more time doing it. And you know where that got me? Even more exhaustion! So lately, I've just let it all go. I've accepted life for what it is and because of a recent change, I've been even more tired so I definitely do not have as much energy as a few months ago. I've just been doing what needs to get done daily and been grateful for all the things I have in my life. And guess what? Today, a light went on. Nothing that's going to drastically change my life tomorrow but it's a baby step. Something I might want to work towards. Something I absolutely love. And who knows, maybe tomorrow the excitement will fade away but for now, I'm going to hold onto this feeling and bask in it. And be happy that I just discovered it doing my normal everyday activity. So that's just it, go with the flow...even if things seem stormy, you just never know where it could lead you...
Happy dreaming...

Giving

The past few weeks have been a little stressful for me and also all over the world, mostly in Japan. In times when I'm feeling down or out of sorts, I not only remember the hardships that some others are enduring, but I also find a way to give. This entry is not about trying to make someone do anything, it's more of a personal tool I use to rise above my daily worries. And it can be useful to some. Giving should always come from the heart otherwise, it's meaningless.

During times when I'm incredibly sad, somehow my awareness takes me to those in need. And the first thing I acknowledge is my problem truly isn't so bad after all, that in itself does a lot to lift me. But the second and most surprising thing that I do afterward is give. The rougher I'm feeling, the bigger I try to give. You might question, well what does that do? I will tell you from my personal experience when I have done this, not only do I feel incredibly happy knowing it's going to someone else in need but also it helps me feel great knowing that I'm not being a part of a problem, but a small part in helping to alleviate some of the world's dilemma. It could be a neighbor, a best friend, or even those without heat in Japan. You see that is the secret. When you give to others, you are naturally giving to yourself. It's remembering how lucky you are to have the things you have and nothing feels greater inside than when you feel your heart expand reaching out to others. It may be strangers or someone close to you. Try it. When you are feeling sad, give for example, a purse away or even food to a homeless shelter. I guarantee, there is no way you will feel bad. Know why? Because giving naturally forces you to take your focus off of your own problems. And whatever you focus on, it naturally grows, so why sit around seeing your problems get bigger and bigger? It only creates fear, and fear breeds fear. After giving I guarantee your mind will be clearer and by then you may find a solution to your problem.

So why not help to spread positivity in the meantime? What you give in this life is what you get back. But remember to give from your heart. Giving just to give because it's the supposed right thing to do, will bring you nothing but resentment and regret. Do you want that to keep coming back to you? I know I don't! You'll know when you are giving from the heart because you will feel it enlarge and uplift. There will be a sense of peace. The choice is always yours, this is just something I do for myself and of course for others.

Love, Light, and Laughter to Everyone

Inspriration

Hello All! 2011 is here, well it's been here quite awhile now...
I've had some few friends ask me when I will be blogging again. And believe me I've had all sorts of ideas for writing topics but just have not felt inspired to write. Could be because of a numerous amount of reasons, exhaustion, lack of motivation, fear of thinking no one actually cares to read any of my ramblings, and most of all I've been terribly addicted to a computer game. I could spend hours playing this game and realize nothing has been done. Any free moment I had to myself which is rare in itself, I just wanted to tune out the world and my brain apparently and play this game.

For just a few hours, I would be able to completely stop thinking and the constant contemplation of daily worries and worldly affairs. Reading is something else I get to do when my baby falls asleep, but again, during reading my mind races into a zillion directions on how I can help my household run better or save the world! Ha! Never a time to just zone out and relax unless I am playing that mind numbing game. I suppose now is the time I realize it is no longer serving me. I miss writing. Like actually miss it. And regardless if only a few of my friends are reading this, at least my messages are being been seen by some people! Thank you buddies!!!

I have exciting things that I will be writing about. I've gathered mucho information from the lovely cyber world and have applied them to my own actual lifestyle and have seen great improvement. But for now, I better save it until next time. My baby or actually my big boy just told me he is hungry. Motherhood comes first. Just thought I would write a nice introductory entry for the new year before settling in with other topics. Byeee!